i think separation is ok

i will disappoint you.

i had another job interview today. hopefully her enthusiasm actually comes through unlike the last one. i think i did well, i looked good and told her everything she was looking for, plus a little extra personal information to make a connection, perfect execution.

i'm sitting at my dads because audrie and lorrie are out of town and he wanted me to come hang out with him, but he started watching football and fell asleep on the couch. i really miss living here, it was a thousand times easier than where i'm at now, and i feel so much more at home here. just the house and the things in it and the colors and the smells, this is my home. i remember lisa coming in the front door, and smelling the air and looking satisfied every time she came over, because she said my house had a certain smell and she wished she could bottle it and sell it. i had no idea what she was talking about until i moved out, and i miss that smell so much. hopefully audrie will enjoy my room as much as i did, and have as many amazing memories in there as i had. there were some bad ones too, but i learned from them and i know she will too. a lot of firsts in that room. from love to hate.

i'm starting to get impatient about leaving las vegas. i'm supposed to wait until i graduate and have my teaching license, but i don't think i can wait that long. i want to go now, and start living. i just feel like there's so much more out there than this little town where everyone knows everyone and you can't let go of anything because drama is all we have to occupy us.


I AM BORED BECAUSE I FEEL MUCH OLDER.